My Onion Layers

     “See I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.” Isaiah 43:19

Oh, how very thankful I am that I can claim this verse! God is doing a new thing in me! I know it but I must believe it and strive for it daily! It’s exciting, scary, frustrating and fabulous all at once!

I was slicing red onion for a salad the other week and for some reason noticed the bright layers so tightly pressed together and it made me think of my spiritual life. Just as many of my doctors have told me in regards too my health, we must peel back the layers of sickness, one at a time, and so it is with my journey with Jesus.

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When I look back over the last few years I realize that even though we’ve had incredibly hard times, God has slowly been peeling back my layers. Layers of pride, selfishness, bitterness, and control. Even as I write this I’m sure that I’ll look back and know that I still needed so much work done! God is not finished but the beauty is to see that I’m allowing Him to change me, but I must be willing. It makes me laugh a bit, I mean, at least I see something from this long, hard journey we call life!  🙂

I am quite sure that I’ve resisted the journey for quite some time. Maybe not intentionally but I’ve resisted it. I begged God to answer prayers on my time because now is when I thought it best but He has other plans. Better plans than mine. Better than I can every imagine.

I’m realizing that what I think are interruptions in my life are God’s interventions. Interventions of teaching me, saving me from what, I’m not always sure of but I know He is using this time to intervene in my life, in our lives.

But the question is, will I embrace it? Will I be willing to see the health issues, the very “snug” finances, the lack of knowing where we’ll live in the near future as God’s plan for me? How much do I treasure God’s plan for me above my own? Or do I at all? I fear I’ve had moments where I’ve thought my plan was much better but slowly as the onion layers are being peeled back I’m starting to see that His plan is better.

“Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.” Isaiah 43: 1-2

I don’t know about you, but my onion layers feel like rivers and fires most days! When God starts peeling back another layer of selfishness it feels overwhelming at times. I feel like it’s never going to end! I have to spend time with Jesus when this happens or I will be overwhelmed and will start to resent the peeling layer. I’m so grateful to God for His patience and love to me. He loved me when I was still a sinner, died for me and still loves me when I have so many layers to peel back.

“Jesus, help me today to face the layer that You wish to remove. Help me not to run away but to embrace change, redemption, healing and most of all, Your love. Amen.”